IGN: FrustratedFilth/ForgivenFilth/FlusteredFilth
Reason of ban: Conditional self-ban based on mental health. There shall be no return until that mental health improves. - Rajaat
Who banned you, if you know: Rajaat
Why we should unban you: Years of improper and neglected mental health treatment had and has been causing damage all around. Lots of it in this community alone all by my hand and overactive weariness and paranoia. Even affecting my own line of work these past months. Causing me to burn bridges and scorch friendships to mere earth now salted over anxiety fueled moments. But as of recent and speaking with friends, therpaists and a psycholigist. I know that people only want the best for me.
Discussing with Rajaat over the past month, I've spoken to different therapists and a psycholigst as well for consultation. Getting the nesscary medications and connections in order to help tame and reduce the amount of control that ancient repitillian brain of my holds over me. To which drove me to take offered out hands of friendship in the past and present, only to hiss at them like a cornered animal due to past experiences in my life leaving me distrustful of people no matter how much they offered me their friendship and tolerated my toxicity laced words in response.
I've sent Raj and the staff team evidence of my continued journey to seek both mental health treatment and my path of atonement for past and present actions. To which I understand that any future spirals that go unchecked will not be tolerated. Although I need to know when to stop myself in the case such things do happen and merely inform others via reaching out.
The best I can hope for now is that the staff team and the players will accept my apology and the effort I am giving to try and improve myself with the best of my ability. That is all one can do now a days is simply try our best. Even if we need to take slow and careful steps to rebuild bridges once burnt.
Staff has discussed your progress, you hit all of our requirements and we appreciate it. Indeed there is zero tolerance in the future so please reach out if you feel yourself spiraling down. Otherwise, your accounts are unbanned. Huzzah!